お待たせしました〜

日本語の投稿を再開します〜

読者には、日本語が分かる人はほとんどいないと思いますけど……

今週の土曜に東京で性同一性障害の協会が交流会を開いて、その情報を聞いて、行くことにしました。実は、怖いです。

もちろん、行きたいです。でも、日本に来てからずっと、女装したり、女声を練習したり、一度もしなかったんです。進歩がなくて、むしろ退歩している気がする。

だから、行かなければならないと思います。

ところで、最近「電車男」というドラマを見ています。今終わったところです。話もいいけど、見てから私も「2ch」に悩みを投稿しようかなと考えてきました。

トクに、性同一性障害に関する質問が解答されるはずです。２ちゃんも今週の交流会も、楽しみにしています。

好奇心のせいか、以上の文をgoogleで訳したら……と思って、爆笑しちゃった！

どうぞ、読んでみてください　(^o^)

Japanese ~ Post Resumes
The reader will understand that I think very few Japanese are ...
Open Exchange Meeting Association of GLBT in Tokyo on Saturday this week, hearing that information, I decided to go. This is in fact scary.
Of course, you go. But ever since coming to Japan, and transvestites, and women exercise, I did not even once. Without progress, and feel that rather backward.
So I must go.
Meanwhile, recent "Train Man" is a look at the drama. I just finished. I can talk better, I look at the "2ch" I think that you try to submit a trouble to.
In particular, questions should be answered by GLBT. Chan AC 2 times this week, we look forward to.

-from google translate

good luck with that one!

fall cleaning

today is going to be a day of cleaning.

that means, of course, i'll be cleaning my room. but more than that, i'm going to do some cleaning of my whole life.

and i'm going to drink a lot of water.

(just so you don't get the wrong idea: cleaning my life doesn't mean i'll be doing some sort of moral reevaluation. it means getting rid of baggage—cleaning out the problems of my heart. i no have major qualms with my sense of morality.)

and since i'm writing this post at the start of my cleaning, that means i'll be doing some heart cleaning first. feel free to skip this section because chances are you won't understand it.

==heart cleaning==

i can't do it anymore. it's done. i'm not going to keep loving you—and in the process re-break my own heart every week. and that means i'm going to have to keep some distance.

it may seem weird to save a friendship by pulling away, but i don't know what else to do. i have to detach.

i've wondered if i just need to find someone else to be interested in. i don't think my heart works that way though. and i don't feel like i even have the energy to try.

i'm not going to slip. i need to be firm. i'm not going to let myself fall into my old habits of "what if..." and "if only...".

再见.

==house cleaning==

first the clutter. and dishes (only a cup, a plate, and a few knives—not that bad, eh?). and.............done

well that only took a few hours (distractions included). (>_<)

there'll be some re-cleaning to do after dinner, but the main job is done. the last main thing i need to do is sweeping. it's been a while, so i'm expecting a few kilos of dust/debris.

i'll conclude there. "i'm about to eat dinner and sweep my floor" isn't much of a cliff-hanger, so i don't feel in the least bit bad about cutting this one off.

until next time (^-^)\

pre-post post

gonna write a post soon.

get ready for it!